Over the last few months, over 100 people gave to my Karuna Training Graduate Program fund. It was an act of giving based on little
received in return - literally little - a 17-syllable haiku thank you. Their
generosity has been gratitude for all I have given, or for the sake of giving,
rather than reward. I was – and am - grateful. But I also experienced
discomfort, a revealing of my own funky ego beliefs around money, giving, and
receiving.
While everyone has given to me in love-filled ways in the
last few months, I have not always received with clarity. I wanted to share
some of the underbelly aspects of my experience. These have nothing to do with
others’ generosities and everything to do with my hyper-independent identity,
difficulty in asking and receiving help, and working with entitlement and
privilege.
